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FEBRUARY 16, 2009

First time sacrifices

It has been a long time since I talked about my everyday activities and I am already breaking my promise to myself, which is to put into writing (or typing :D) all the "memorable" events in my life ... or even when I just feel like blogging. I could defend myself on that.

I have been so busy in school that I don't even have time to surf the net, watch tv, eat and sleep anymore. Yes, you read it right. I have been skipping meals because of loads of stuff required in school. This sem, I also experienced my very first 24-hour-no-sleep ek-ek. Dati kasi, kinukulang ako ng isang oras. I could only manage to stay up for 23 hours! haha! I always fall asleep on the last hour! Now, I have been staying up for 24 hours. sheesh! This sem, I also experienced my first ever ubernyt na super educational and dating. Dati kasi, nag-uubernyt kami for FUN lang. I had my biggest eyebags on February 06, 2009. Sheeesh do I look so I wasted! Nakakahiya! haha! And worst, walang napala sa sakripisyong yun! We all got 22% on RLE day 9. Di kami nakapag-present! Tsk. Tsk.


So much for being a leader

I never imagined dreamed for becoming a leader in RLE/PHC. Actually, hindi naman talaga ako dapat ang leader eh. Kaso, the "original" leader of our group was assigned as KII, a group from among us who would collect data about the community in the barangay. Our community leader, who happens to be a member of our group, appointed me as the leader of F23. At first, AYOKO! AYOKO TALAGA! But we don't have any choice. Our CL PROMISED me na tutulungan niya ako. HE PROMISED ...

Aun. pangakong napako ang bagsak. And ang bagsak ko ... HELL! I had to sacrifice my "social life" (which includes malling and everything!), food and sleep! I can feel I am becoming unhealthy (alam mo yun, ung basta. feel mo iba) ... and I don't like it.

(I am currently in my bioethics class while doing this thing ... in my notebook :D I am soooo bored eh. Hasa harap pa man din ako! haha! As in mag-isa ako dito sa first row and sir is just a few inches away from me! :D He's actually talking about euthanasia and SUICIDE ... I am thinking about the latter *evil grin*)


Sama ng loob

Our CL keeps on bossing us leaders. Napakademanding niya and super daming utos! What's worse? Kapag may kailangan siya, tsaka lang niya sinasabi kung kelan niya na kailangan. Oh diba? ang bibo! We have lots of other stuffs to do pa noh! What made him think na kaya naming gawin mga pinapagawa niya ng ganun kabilis?! Super dami pa naman ...

We have our own family in the community. Trio kami. I'm with our CL and another frined. Grabe! Nagkanya-kanya sila ng gawain sa paperworks namin! Kinuha nila lahat ng madali then biglang binigay sakin yung mahirap (at di ko alam gawin). Syempre nagreklamo ako! Our CL said he will he me daw. Tsk. As usual, wala nanaman si pangako. 3 times akong nagpalit at nag-edit. FUCK! There was this scene one night when we we're all in school late because of the case pres.

CL talks to our other trio, my friend:
CL: May soft copy ka ng mga outputs?
Friend: Wala. Si Jaira meron.

(Sheesh! Wala man lang initiative ang mga lokaret na tumulong! I was working on the case pres that time and I was already at my wits end! Leader nga eh. So kailangan matapos. You know what he said?!)

CL: EH DI SIYA NA ULIT GAGAWA LAHAT. (FUCKING SHIT!)


(I know this looks soooo haba na. Pagbugyan niyo ko. It's been a while since I had my last entry here :D)

Just now, I have our outputs beside me. Both of my ka-trio never even bothered to ask how I did with the outputs! I slept at 1 am last night (or this morning). Bangag na bangag ako! kakawindang!

I have been trying to cheer myself up since this morning. Un nga lang, pinagkakait pa ng tadhana. Just before our bio class, this "friend" (another one ha) na seatmate ko din, happened to be my ka-group in the reporting in STS. Haaaay. grabe din mag-utos to. kala mo kung madaming ginagawa eh wala naman. Pareho sila ng CL. Utos ng utos wala namang ginagawa.

Ok ok. I think i'm going to stop here na. I have other things to do pa. :D Thanks for reading ... kung meron man. haha!

-Jaira Marie